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How Do I Balance my Chakras?

 

What are Chakras?

The word chakra comes from the Sanskrit word meaning wheel – they are spinning vortices of energy.

The earliest mention of the term chakra is said to come from the ancient Vedas – 4 holy books of the Hindus, believed to date back before 2,500 BC.

Chakra healing is based on the belief that in order for total well being to take place we must act on the integrated whole.

Chakras operate like interconnected, self-opening valves that channel universal life-force energy into the body. They are self opening valves and they open and close on a daily basis. It is when they are blocked that it affects your well-being and the disfunction of one chakra can affect another.

Where are they on the body?

 

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White – Crown Chakra – Top of the Head

Purple – Third Eye

Blue – Throat Chakra

Green – Heart Chakra

Yellow – Solar Plexus

Orange – Sacral Chakra

Red – Root chakra

 

What is Chakra Balancing?

Chakra balancing can be done on yourself and other people. It uses a full rainbow layout which consists of 7 stones of a colour which vibrates with each particular chakra.

Malfunctions can occur when the energy flowing through the chakras is either excessive or deficient

By recognising these malfunctions, you can transform all aspects of your life and that of others, for the better.

The chakra system vibrates to the related colours within the aura and can be balanced very easily using crystals of the same colour. It is the colour that is important not the stones.

What Crystals should be used?

Chakra Point

Colour

Suggested Crystals

Crown

White

Clear Quartz

Brow

Purple

Amethyst

Throat

Blue

Blue Lace Agate

Heart

Green

Green Aventurine

Solar Plexus

Yellow

Citrine

Sacral

Orange

Carnelian

Base

Red

Red Jasper

Grounding

Dark Stone

Black Obsidian

These are the crystals I suggest for chakra balancing, although, as stated before, it is the colour of the stone that is important. Therefore, you can use any crystal that matches the colour of the chakra

It is not always necessary to use all 7 stones. If you identify that a particular chakra needs balancing, you can simply place your chosen stone/s on the chakra that needs alignment. However, I always place them all on as it is always nice to give them all a boost.

Top Tip:

You cannot leave the crystals on too long, they will stop working once they are no longer needed.

If you would like to learn more, I have a chakra clearing course available which teaches you all about the chakras in-depth and also how to balance your own and other people’s chakras via distance. You can also gain an accredited certificate in chakra balancing. Check it out on the link below. 

https://indigo-soul.teachable.com/p/chakra-balancing-challenge/

Love & Blessings

Choosing Crystals

What Type of Crystal should I use for me bunion?

 

Do you know I get asked so many times what type of crystal should I use for migraines, depression and that painful bunion? You name it, I’ve more than likely been asked about it.

What is my answer?…..

Hold on let me look in my crystal bible and tell you what it recommends?

Nope

I don’t do that.

  • Did you know that the best way to choose a crystal is by intuition? 

I’m not knocking those that look it up in the crystal bible or those that know crystals so well that they know the best ones for different ailments or emotional stresses.

HOWEVER

  • Using your intuition is THE best method of choosing the correct method for YOU
  • We are all unique energy beings and we all vibrate differently. What suits one person may not necessary suit another.

So I CHALLENGE you.

  • Go into a shop
  • Close Your Eyes
  • and choose the first crystal you see when you open your eyes

OR

do it with your own crystals that you have already

THEN

  • Look it up online or in your crystal bible
  • Choose the words and phrases that stand out

I bet your bottom dollar that it will all resonate with how you are feeling and what you need at the moment

EASY when you know how isn’t it?

HAVE FUN and let me know how you get on

Want to Learn More About Crystals?

I have an online crystal chakra balancing course just for you.

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Cleansing Crystals

Handle with Care

Crystals should always be treated with the utmost care which means you should always think about cleansing crystals. Although they appear to be quite hard and solid, they can be scratched, chipped or even broken.

Crystals Hold Energy

Because crystals can attract and absorb both positive and negative energies, it is vital that you remove any negative energy before use.

There are many methods of cleansing crystals and it is really a matter of personal preference.

  • Natural water
  • Salt Water
  • Sound
  • Amethyst/Quartz Cluster
  • Incense
  • Smudging

There are other methods but these are the easiest to access.

Be Careful With Water

You have to be really careful when cleaning some crystals in water as they are not soluble. Friedrich Mohs devised the Mohs scale as a way of defining the hardness of different crystals and minerals. Selenite is a typical crystal that cannot be cleansed in water.

Easiest Way to Cleanse Crystals of Energy

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Using incense and smudging can be an easy way to cleanse your crystals as well as your room. However, personally I prefer using sound as I find this the most quick and effective method. You could put all of your crystals into a large singing bowl but I prefer to use tingshas in the picture above. You just clang the tingshas together and swirl them in a circular motion around the crystals. You can then dowse afterwards to ask if they are cleared sufficiently, although it’s not needed as, even though this a very quick and simple method, it is highly effective.

I have some fabulous tingshas (my favourite way of clearing energy) available in my online shop and I ship internationally:

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ALWAYS BE SURE TO GROUND BEFORE YOU WORK WITH YOUR CRYSTALS OR DO ANY FORM OF ENERGY WORK AND MAKE SURE YOU REGULARLY CLEANSE YOUR CRYSTALS

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Getting CRYSTAL Clear

There are no set rules or regulations about which crystals you should choose for yourself but the best selection process is INTUITION.

There is always a good reason why one crystal stands out from the rest …

when you are selecting them for personal use – your initial reaction to a crystal will usually provide a good clue as to how its energy reacts with the current state of energy and balance within your body at the time.

Also pay particular attention to the stones that you instinctively dislike – this is an indication that the qualities of the energy present in the stone is not suitable for you at this moment in time.

Methods of Selection

  • Sight
  • Scanning
  • Vibration
  • Pendulum

A stone will only stay with you for as long as its energy is needed …

after which time it will remove itself. Many people report how they mysteriously lose a crystal, gemstone or a piece of jewellery when they most wanted to wear or use it, only to find that some days, weeks or months later it reappears – this is because you are now in tune with its energy and are receptive to its healing power.

Sensations from Crystals

  • Energetic charge
  • Breeze or cool sensation across the skin
  • Flow of energy from the crystal
  • Coldness or heat
  • Pulsing/vibration
  • Flush or wave of heat through the body
  • Feelings of being enclosed in an energy field

The easiest and most effective way to choose the crystal that you need at the moment is to use or buy the one that catches your eye. One method is to close your eyes and then go for the one your eyes are led to first of all when you open your eyes. If you choose a crystal using this method and look it up in the Crystal Bible by Judy Hall, you will be surprised that it resonates with what you need at the moment. A good tip when reading up on a particular crystal is to scan the pages and read out the sections that stand out to you as not all the crystal’s properties will resonate with you.

You can also always test which crystal to use using the pendulum method. I have done another article on using a pendulum. Check it out here >>>>Pendulum Dowsing in 3 Easy Steps

By using a pendulum, you can ask if you should wear a certain crystal necklace or crystal bracelet on a particular day.

You cannot overdose on a crystal …

so do not worry about wearing it for too long; your body will absorb exactly what you need at the time. However, you may need to wear the same crystal for a period of time to get the benefit needed. Be sure to clear your crystals regularly to ensure they are clear of anyone else’s energy before you wear them.

ALWAYS BE SURE TO GROUND BEFORE YOU WORK WITH YOUR CRYSTALS OR DO ANY FORM OF ENERGY WORK AND MAKE SURE YOU REGULARLY CLEANSE YOUR CRYSTALS

Would you like to learn how to use crystals to heal yourself and others. Check out my online course on the link below:

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Love & Blessings

What Kind of Light-worker are You?

 

What is a Light-worker?

A light-worker is someone who makes a conscious decision to endeavour to answer the call of source (light) over the call of ego (fear).

They often reach a stage of enlightenment before they incarnate on earth. Although, sometimes enlightenment may occur after a traumatic or emotional experience when a walk-in may occur which is when the soul leaves the body and another higher dimensional soul such as an angel or archangel takes it’s place on a temporary or permanent basis.

Their personal and soul contracts are decided before their reincarnation. Their personal contract may be how many relationships or children they may have and what their job will be such as hairdresser, counsellor. Their soul contract may be spiritual teaching, learning or energy healing.

They have many of the following traits:

  • Carry a strong desire to spread light, knowledge, freedom and self love on earth. In fact they see it as their mission.
  • Often attracted to therapeutic work and spirituality and often feel different.
  • Nearly always solitary.
  • Feel lost or suffer depression as societies values and judgements go against what they value.
  • Have lived many lives on earth where they have been involved with spirituality and/or religion.
  • Have always been psychics or empaths serving as a connector between the known and unknown

Light-workers can be divided into 3 categories:

Earth Angel

  • Has been a fairy or witch in ancient and medieval ages
  • Will choose the same identity in every life
  • Has an inmate sense of environment
  • Sixth sense is highly developed although can be blocked
  • Choose nursing, healing and teaching as a profession.

Incarnated Angels

  • Reincarnated ascended masters or archangels in human form
  • Natural born leaders or teachers
  • Choose spiritual healing, teaching, politics, social work, world peace

Mystic Stars

  • Natural readers of astrology and astronomy
  • Powerful healers, fortune tellers scientists and astrologers

Within the Earth Angel Category, there are a few main types of light workers:

Empath

  • Affected by other people’s energies
  • Being an empath cannot be learnt; you are either one or you are not
  • May experience chronic fatigue or unexplained aches and pains
  • Can feel overwhelmed in public places
  • Can be all knowing, i.e. they just know things without being told
  • Feel and act out other people’s emotions
  • Find it unbearable to watch violence, cruelty or tragedy on the TV or social media
  • Know when someone is not being honest
  • Often pick up physical symptoms of someone else
  • Often suffer from digestive disorders and lower back pain
  • Always look out for the underdog; people suffering from emotional pain or being bullied
  • Others will often come to them to offload their problems
  • May have be highly prone to addiction
  • Drawn to healing
  • Creative
  • Have a love of nature and animals
  • Have a great need for periods of quiet and solitude
  • Gets bored or distracted easily
  • Finds it impossible to do things they don’t enjoy
  • Hates routine and rules
  • Can appear moody

Indigo

  • Highly telepathic or intuitive
  • Lead with a higher consciousness and may often seem distracted during conversation or may butt in as they have a very low attention span.
  • Have natural healing abilities
  • Can read people. They feel who they are by their energy and can spot if someone is being fake a mile off.
  • Babies and small children are drawn to them.
  • Random people tell them their problems/life story
  • May long for something deeper in their life
  • Have a warrior spirit. Never give up and keep going despite many setbacks
  • You can be an empath and an indigo

Indigo Children

  • Represent a higher state of evolution
  • Believed to have an indigo coloured aura which represents the third eye and is associated with intuition and paranormal activities such as seeing angels, spirit, deceased loved ones
  • Highly empathetic. They can discern what others are thinking and feeling
  • Highly sensitive
  • Strong willed, independent thinkers. They prefer to be self-guided rather than directed by others.
  • Will not conform to fit to society
  • Possess wisdom beyond their years
  • Often diagnosed with ADHD, OCD and dyslexia
  • Unsociable when around others who are not of like mind
  • Can be prone to depression, sleep disorders and persistent nightmares
  • Tend to be more visual, kinaesthetic learners
  • Highly energetic. Need movement to keep them focussed
  • Have difficulty sitting still
  • Possess a low tolerance for people that are not authentic and also for authority when they cannot see the purpose of it.
  • Become angry and frustrated and will act out if they see any injustice
  • Tend to have a lot of allergies; food and airborne
  • Absorb energy so may act out or become introverted if surrounded by anger or loud noisy places.
  • Creative with an artistic flair
  • Easily bonds with plants and animals

Crystal/Star Children

  • Began to appear on the Earth from about 1990 – 2010, although a few came earlier.
  • Main purpose is to take us to the next level in our evolution and reveal to us our inner and higher power
  • Function as a group consciousness
  • Advocates love and peace on the planet
  • Mostly born into a gold ray of incarnation and evolution and they have access to gifts of clairvoyance and healing
  • Born on the sixth dimension of consciousness with potential to open up rapidly to the ninth dimension level of full christ consciousness and then to the 13th level of universal consciousness
  • Auras are octarine which isn’t in the normal vision of the human eyes and is the manifested colour of magic.
  • Have a very forgiving nature
  • Very sensitive, warm and caring
  • Very powerful

Rainbow Children

  • Have never lived on this planet before
  • Entirely fearless of everyone
  • Only here to give
  • Are already at their spiritual peak

There are many other types and labels of light-workers but these are the main ones. If you are a light-worker you should fit into one of these and have most of the traits. If in doubt, please do not hesitate to ask me for guidance and scroll down for the opportunity to meet your soul tribe.

 

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References
www.facebook.com/theordore-alexander
www.reikirays.com/4183/lightworkers
www.themindunleashed.org

Think you ain’t got time to meditate? You’re Wrong

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Why Meditate?

  • How many times have you done something on autopilot?
  • Drove to work and not remembered all of the journey?
  • Eaten a meal and not really savoured the flavour?
  • Gone for a walk and not taken in your surroundings?
  • Just noticed something on your journey that you never noticed before?

Mindfulness can also be about living in the moment; savouring it and focussing entirely on what you are doing. Meditation or mindfulness as it is often called has a powerful influence on your health, your wellbeing and your happiness and can also be a tremendous way of developing your intuition. It can offer an opportunity to get in touch with your mind on an intricate spiritual level and it is a state of thoughtful awareness. It can help with stress anxiety and depression, improve your memory and can help you enjoy better and more fulfilling relationships. It can also be effective in reducing the impact of serious conditions such as chronic pain. It can also bolster the immune system.

Different Methods

There are many different methods of meditation. Here are a few of the main ones:

  • Guided meditation – whereby someone talks you through a scenario and creates a visual scene for you to follow or gives you some form of healing by using affirmations which can be set to relaxing music.
  • Breathing and focussing meditation. There is an exercise below that you can do to begin with to practise this form of meditation.
  • Intuitive Guidance Meditation whereby you can ask for intuitive guidance. This could be for a specific situation or you could just ask your guides to give you what you need to know today.

Breathing & Focus Exercise

  1. Sit erect in a straight back chair and close your eyes
  2. Focus your attention on your breath as it flows in and out of your body
  3. After a while, your mind may wander. When you notice this, gently bring your attention back to your breath. The act of realising that your mind has wandered and bringing yourself back without criticising yourself is central to the practice of mindful meditation.
  4. Your mind may eventually become calm or it may not. You may get a sense of absolute stillness. It may only be fleeting but that does not matter. Whatever happens just allow it.
  5. After a minute, let your eyes open and take in the room again.

This form of meditation allows you to observe your thoughts as they arise in your mind and little by little to let go of struggling with them.

You will realise that your thoughts come and go of their own accord and that all thoughts are transient; they come and go and you have a choice about whether you act on them or not.

You can think of negative thoughts as black clouds and watch them float away.

Doing this exercise can put you back in control of your thoughts.

How and When Should you Meditate?

  • Sit or lie down (however your feel most comfortable)
  • Don’t try too hard
  • Don’t expect too much at first
  • Main reason to meditate is to quieten your mind and relax
  • You don’t have to be in a yoga pose or sat upright
  • It can just be focussing on what you are doing and giving it your full attention
  • Play some nice music if it helps you to relax better
  • Light some incense
  • Light a candle
  • Meditating is best practised every day if you can
  • However, don’t worry if you don’t manage it every day
  • 2-3 minutes is all you need
  • Or, even if you only do a 10 minute meditation once a week it will make a difference

Summary

  • Meditation really does make a difference to your wellbeing
  • It helps you to quieten your mind
  • Switches you off from the everyday chaos
  • Brings you closer to source which, in turn, develops your intuition
  • Helps with anxiety and depression and other illnesses
  • There are lots of different methods
  • Experiment and find one or more method/s that suit you
  • Do it as often as you can; a few minutes a day is all you need
  • Don’t worry if your mind wanders, just bring it back and focus and don’t beat yourself up about it

Can you really afford not to find the time to meditate. Try it and you will realise all of the benefits.

“Meditation is the tongue of the soul and the language of our spirit” – Jeremy Taylor

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Bibliography
Mindfulness: A Practical Guide to finding Peace in a Frantic World, Professor Mark Williams
The Miracle of Mindfulness, Thich Nhat Hanh

Full Moon Letting Go & Manifestation

As seen in Reiki Rays

With a full moon, we very often write what it is we want to let go of. However, when we let go it is a good time to also bring in the new and manifest whatever it is your heart desires. By letting go of anything that does not serve you, it will bring in new powerful energy for whatever you desire so you need to make sure that you are clear on what you would like to manifest the most.

What you need to do is take a large piece of paper, A4 size would be good but it doesn’t matter.

Fold the piece of paper in half and write down ONE thing you really need to get rid of. It is a good idea to do one thing at a time as you can really focus on that one issue to let go of. Once you feel you have properly let go of something and healed from it, you can then work on something else. Please bear in mind that when you are letting go, lots of negative thoughts and emotions can come up for some time afterwards and often need separate periods to completely heal and let go of, particularly if they are big issues.

Here is an example of what you could write to let go of money blocks.

ON THE LEFT HAND SIDE

Dear Universe

I AM so happy and grateful NOW THAT I am letting go of all my money worries, all my fears and anxieties to do with money, all the debt that is weighing down heavy on my shoulders, all the feelings of lack I always have with money, all the feelings of money burning a hole in my pocket, all the feelings of just scraping by, all the feelings of struggling with money and never having enough in the bank and never have any savings.

Really pour out all the feelings you have about money (or whatever it is you want to let go of).

Then add

“Thank you for taking away anything that does not serve me with regards to money and is stopping my flow.

I am releasing all of this with grace and ease and a big weight is lifting off my shoulders!

All for my highest good.

And so it is!!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU”

THEN

ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE

Write how you want your money situation to be as though you have it already:

FULL MOON INTENTION – insert date here

I AM so happy and grateful NOW THAT I have an abundance of money. I have more than enough money. Money flows to me easily and frequently. I always have more than enough money in my bank account and I am able to treat myself and my family whenever I wish as well as give money to my favourite charity. I love money and money loves me, it flows to me in an abundant and steady flow. It is so good to get the old weight off my shoulders and so it is!! Thank you angels for the abundance of money in my life.

AND SO IT IS!!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU

THEN

Carefully tear or cut the paper in half and burn the LEFT HAND side on the full moon. You can burn it anytime in the next 24 hours as the moon energy is becoming intense already. Fold up the RIGHT HAND side and put it somewhere prominent, under your pillow or on your mantelpiece or in your reiki box then ask that the energy be sent to all of your full moon intentions for as long as is needed to manifest them.

It doesn’t have to be money, I have just given that as an example. It can be anything you wish to let go of. Just concentrate on one major thing that you feel is holding you back. Write down what you want to let go of on the left hand side. Be as negative as you like here, really pour out your feelings, then on the right hand side be really positive as though you have it already and what you would like to manifest. It doesn’t even matter if they don’t match. If you let go of something that is not serving you, it will free up the flow of creation for manifestation of all the good things you wish to have in your life NOW.

Enjoy!

Lots of Love, blessing AND ABUNDANCE

Jan xxx

Indigo Soul

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Pendulum Dowsing in 3 Easy Steps


What is a Pendulum?

A pendulum is a balanced weight suspended by a chain or thread and is simply a means of visually checkingWha what the unconscious mind already knows. The pendulum is an extension of our inner senses and is communication with your higher self. Some people believe, as I do, that we can also invite our guides and Angels to help us with pendulum readings

Dowsing with a pendulum has been around for many years and is fixed in folklore as ‘an old wives tale’. Many women tied their wedding ring onto a piece of thread and held it over their palm to determine the sex of their unborn child. In many cases what the women were actually doing was using their sixth sense as a way of guiding their sub conscious mind.

  • Have you ever had a gut feeling that something was going to happen?
  • Have you ever known someone would be calling before the phone rang?
  • These are all things that we call gut feelings; little voices or intuition. In a proper state of mind we can access information that is not available to use through our conscious mind.

Pendulum dowsing allows us to access and develop our intuition. First you try to get to the state of relaxed concentration then, by asking a carefully worded question, you open a ‘channel’ of communication and receive the information that you seek. Your body amplifies that signal and displays it through dowsing tools and pendulums.

Anyone can learn to dowse but to become an expert in this field you must practice, practice, practice.

Once you learn the basics of pendulum dowsing, a whole new world opens up to you. You can dowse food for allergic reactions, use your pendulum as a healing tool, use it to clarify situations or to put your mind at ease.

Pendulums come in many shapes, sizes and materials. Once you find the special one for you do not let anyone else use it or you will not become fully attuned to it. Some people like to own several pendulums and use them for different purposes but this is not necessary; it is entirely personal preference.

Always make sure that your pendulum is cleansed before and after use

This can be done in a number of ways. I find sound is the quickest and most effective method and I use tingshas (Small symbols which clear the energy by sound vibrations).

How to Dowse

It is most important that you are grounded and protected before you start to dowse with a pendulum because the pendulum represents an extension or your sixth sense and, in order to develop this skill fully for yourself, you need to be able to detach yourself from the situation unlike when you are dowsing for another person where you have no emotional involvement. There are many methods of grounding such as walking outside, visualising roots growing out of your feet into the ground like a tree, eating and drinking etc. This is covered in my Grounding & Protection BLOG ..

A good way to make sure you are not influencing the pendulum in any way is to say out loud in your thoughts “Please give me an answer unbiased by my own conscious thoughts”

  1. Selection & Attunement
  • Choose the pendulum that you are most attracted to
  • Secure the chain around your finger
  • Hold the pendulum in your left hand and cup your fingers around it
  • Continue to hold the pendulum in your cupped palm for as long as you feel you need to
  • Once you have done this when you first get your pendulum, you do not need to do this every time you use it but do make sure you clear it of any residual energy when dowsing for someone else other than yourself (see above).

2.  Responses

  • If you would like to you can ask to connect to the Universal life force energy of love and light and then welcome your guides and Angels of 100% light only. I tend to do this at the start of the day and ask them to be with me all day whilst I am working as I do a lot of dowsing through the day.
  • Holding the pendulum steady, ask it to show you “YES”
  • Your pendulum will swing in a straight line or in a circular motion. Make a note of how it moves and if it swings side to side; forwards and backwards, or in a circular motion. If it makes a circular motion, note whether it is clockwise or anti-clockwise.
  • Ask your pendulum to show you “NO”
  • To test it ask a question that you know is definitely a right or wrong answer such as “Is my name Nellie (wrong name)?” as opposed to “Is my name Janet (your correct name)?”.

3.  Be Specific

  • Always be really specific with your questions and keep them as simple as possible
  • Always ensure they can be answered with a YES/NO answer. You can also ask for numbers as well, such as “How many questions am I allowed to ask?” Ask each number and then look to see what response you get.

Always remember that destiny can change and if it is an ongoing situation you are asking about, it may be best to check from time to time. The more you work with your pendulum, the more confident you will become so practice, practice, practice.

 

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Look How Far I’ve Come

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Memories …..

Today when I got up I looked at my memories on Facebook, as you do. There wasn’t much there but one caught my eye and it was an article I had shared from Huffington Post about depression. It really rang true to me a couple of years ago as I suffered from severe stress and depression due to what my counsellor described as post traumatic stress disorder. I remembered I laughed at the time. How could I have PTSD? I hadn’t been in a serious accident, I wasn’t a soldier that had suffered from heavy combat; I had just managed to leave my husband after years of mental abuse 5 years earlier and was stressed due to an ongoing court case for ancillary relief with him, That wasn’t anything major!

I know how they feel …

I read this article again today and shared it on my timeline. I really feel for people who suffer from depression and stress as I know how it feels. The days when you just don’t want to get out of bed. The days you just let the phone ring because you don’t want to speak to anyone. The days you phone in sick saying you have a migraine because you can’t stop crying. I battled with stress and depression and for a couple of years and hardly anyone understood. And then I remembered a dream I had last night. It was one about my last place of work. I was a teacher at a college and, very often when I had time off, I was alienated. The past had come back to haunt me in my dream and I remembered in my dream I turned around to go and “have it out” with the person that was alienating me and bringing everyone else along with them. Then I changed my mind and turned back around again. I sat in a corner and cried and cried. Why oh why did no one understand what I was going through? It was a horrible dream but one that was based on past reality and it had come back to haunt me. This dream and the article brought it all back. You see when you are healing from something, it takes a while to heal properly. As my reiki teacher had always said “It’s like peeling the layers of a onion. You think you’re over it then you peel back another layer.

What had I got to show for it …

I worked as a lecturer for 14 years. Blood, sweat and tears. Years and years studying and working hard. I loved my job until my ex best friend took over as my boss and began to bully me. She pretended to be my friend and yet was plotting behind my back to get ahead of me and then to get rid of me. I poured out to her everything I was going through with the court case, the stress I was under and how some days I just felt like I was on auto-pilot and just going through the motions. She used it against me and her and the Head of Department plotted to get rid of me. I had to go through a gruelling tribunal type meeting with the Head, someone from HR, my union rep and the Deputy Principal. As I had had to represent myself in court on numerous occasions and actually question my ex, my abuser, I was well prepared but it was still really nerve-racking. I had been back at work for 5 weeks and I was now full time after being off with a chronic ear condition, probably brought on by stress yet again. I felt the meeting went well and the Head went out of the room very red faced by some of the things I had brought up about the incompetence of my line manager in dealing with my sickness. It was all on paper how she had skipped the correct procedure. However, it was all in vain. After a whole week of waiting, I was finally told by the Deputy Head at 4.00 pm on a Friday that I was dismissed. Not only that would I go and empty my desk there and then. I refused as the two bosses had suddenly descended on the staff room before I had left for the meeting. More than likely to sit there laughing whilst I packed all my things. Instead I went home and cried in my husband’s arms.

Deep down I knew it was meant to be …

As I had been doing a lot of Reiki on myself with the intention to do a job that I loved with people I got on really well with and I had just left the outcome to the Angels and trusted I would get the right one so I quickly bounced back and within two weeks I got a teaching job. It was a hourly paid job teaching in a pupil referral unit. I was a bit nervous but looking forward to it. I mostly worked on my own in a small building in a small town and had to open up and lock up when I left. There were only a hand full of kids at most and I really enjoyed it but, even though it was part time, I spent all my spare time at home preparing lessons. Till one day two months later I got hit with another bomb shell. The Manager rang me and said, due to a bad Ofsted report, they were closing down the Walsall branch which meant all the teaching staff from there would be coming over to Cannock where I worked and he would have to let me go. I was devastated! Yet again I would be out of work! He said I could stay till Christmas whilst the changeover happened.

Observed for two hours …

After a couple of weeks he came over to Cannock and then after about 3 weeks asked if I could stay a bit longer as the tutor teaching my subjects had been asked to teach the pupils from Walsall in another pupil referral unit but it would only be for about another 4 weeks. He said he would let me know for definite before we broke up for Christmas. Except he didn’t tell me. I broke up for Christmas not knowing if I had a job to go back to or not. In the end I had to contact him just after new year. He confirmed he needed me so I went back to work. 1 week later he came into my classroom to do an unannounced observation and stayed for 2 hours! I really didn’t like his energy. It was harsh and I could feel his eyes burning holes into my back as I wrote on the board. I don’t know how I got through the two hours but as soon as I got home I phoned my mom and cried. I only had 3 weeks left to work but my mom told me to quit there and then. She said I’d come a long way after being ill and it wasn’t worth getting stressed out over all over again. I wanted to hug my mom. She was so supportive and really understood what I was going through.

Every cloud has a silver lining…

I had had a payout from the college due to threatening to take them to a tribunal and we were finally able to get enough deposit together to buy a house in my husband’s name so I decided to seek the Government Enterprise allowance and start my own business. That was nearly two years ago now and, despite a few wobbles, I have never given up. Reiki has changed my life! Literally! It has helped me overcome stress, anxiety, depression, helped me heal from a major ear operation and a chronic ear condition and has kept me calm and content with my life. I work alone at home but I feel more loved and fulfilled than I have in my entire life. I have a handful of friends that I go out with and I have met loads of lovely friends online through groups I am in and through people that have joined my group and most of all I have the love of the Angels surrounding me every single day and I never feel alone. I have done a massive amount of healing myself this last year and, despite the peaks and throughs of deep healing, I have kept my business going and it’s slowly started to pick up. I still sometimes have a moment when I miss my old job but it’s only a fleeting moment. I sometimes feel sad and upset that people that called themselves my friends at work haven’t even asked to see me since and really didn’t seem to care how I was. A couple of them have messaged me but that’s it. All the people I helped so much over the years. The ones that confided in me and came to me with their problems. Gone and forgotten that’s what I feel like sometimes but I must still be healing from it and I will be able to remember without it bringing a tear to my eyes soon and then I will know I am healed. I have had to dig deep to regain that confidence and I have started recording my very first online course. Not only that I have managed two live webinars!

Conclusion …

So, if you come across someone suffering with stress, anxiety and depression. They are not putting it on. They are not attention seeking. They are going through a hard time and they just need someone to listen without passing judgement. They need a friend, someone who doesn’t alienate them, someone who is there for them and makes them laugh so they can forget their troubles. I am lucky as, due to Reiki, I don’t suffer with it anymore but please, show only love and compassion for things you don’t understand and always remember the saying “There but for the grace of God go I”. And if you are someone who is struggling at the moment, never ever give up! When you lose something, there is always something better waiting round the corner. Dig deep and find the courage to move forward. If I can do it anyone can! My mission in life now is to help as many people as I can to get over their struggles, their blocks in life and move forwards. Even if it’s only tiny steps I will help them get there. I want people to never feel alone again and give them that helping hand that they need!

Love & blessings. Namaste, Jan xxx


 

 

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I felt like giving up …

What a harrowing time it was! What with my mom having hallucinations and collapsing in the bathroom and thinking someone was out to kill us all and with me totally struggling with money, I really felt like throwing in the towel and giving up on my business!

I found myself in awe of the cleaner …

The one who came in to clean my mom’s room in hospital every day. Oh to have a regular job and be earning some regular money. How could I think like this when my mom was ill in hospital? I had been working on money stuff with Reiki on myself, as well as having past life healing from my reiki teacher, and boy did it bring out some skeletons I thought I had gotten rid of.

Then there was the envy …

I envied my brother and my mom who always seem to have money even though my brother is partially sighted and does not work and my mom retired 25 years ago and only worked part time in a shop. How did they do it? What did I do wrong to deserve to always be struggling for money? Why did I always work so hard and have nothing to show for it? Why did I have a well paid job as a teacher and still end up in loads of debt and nearly bankrupt and then lose it anyway? Why, why, why am I such a failure?

All sorts of questions spinning round in my head …

and also, sometimes, feeling dead guilty for having those thoughts and feelings. My mom was scared to death, she thought someone was trying to kill her, to kill all her family. I should not be thinking all these thoughts. There are more important things to worry about. I spent every waking morning whilst my mom was in hospital crying in despair. For my mom, for my failing business, for feeling completely and utterly useless.

It really came to a head …

when I went to pick my brother up for our daily hospital visit with my daughter the one day. We stopped to get some fuel and I ran in to pay. Only, when I put my debit card in to pay, the cashier said “I’m sorry it’s not accepting your card”. Looking at her very puzzled, I said “But there’s some money in there. Never mind I’ll nip outside to the cashpoint” To my dismay, when I went to the cashpoint, an unexpected bill had gone out and I was overdrawn on my overdraft and there was NO money. I ran to the car and asked my daughter to pay. She ran in with me and paid for the fuel on her card. It was only 20 pounds but I felt so guilty and humiliated. Despite the fact that I had always helped my daughter out with money whenever she needed it, and she reminded me of that fact, I still felt such a let down and such a useless mother for having to borrow money off my daughter who was straight out of uni and really needed the money herself.

That night I cried and cried …

Partly due to desperation over my mom being ill and feeling drained giving her reiki for a few hours every day but mainly due to the fact that I couldn’t go on like this any longer. I couldn’t continue to work round the clock and worry about how I was going to pay my bills every single day. I had to get a job and get one fast. I saw an advert pop up online for an electronic notetaker in a university. My eyes lit up for a few seconds. I could do that! I clicked on the button and started to fill in an application online. I received an email almost straight away saying I needed to do an online typing speed test. Despite it being 11.00 pm in the evening and me not being able to see very well with tears in my eyes, not to mention feeling really, really tired. I immediately sat upright and started to do the typing test. I sent it off and received an email the next morning saying I had gotten through the test and she would like to do a Skype interview with me the following week. Fabulous! Or was it?

The next week was a bit of a haze

Everyone seemed really pleased for me that I was getting a job. “Oh it will do you so much good to get out the house and meet people” everyone seemed to say. “Yes” I said in reply, although every time I said it I had a real sinking feeling in my stomach. Then I thought of the regular money every month; being able to afford to get my hair done, being able to buy the toiletries I so desperately needed and buying the weekly groceries which would help my husband out immensely as he was struggling to pay the mortgage and the household bills. Maybe even being able to afford to save for a holiday and finally being able to spend some money on the girls (my two daughters). 9 years of being in debt after my previous marriage breakup would soon be history! No more sleepless nights! I just kept thinking of all those things to wipe out the sinking feeling.

As each day passed though, the interview was drawing closer and closer. I had had such bad experiences of interviews in my previous job at the college. Gruelling interview panel type interviews and micro teaches with all the biggest wigs in the senior management team looking daggers at me. Feeling as though I wanted the floor to open up and swallow me. Did I really want to go through yet another interview? Did I really want to get a job again? Would I get ill and lose it like I did the last one. I couldn’t go though a week long investigation with the Vice Principal like last time. Feeling humiliated after working damn hard for 14 years and giving the place blood, sweat and tears. I had to push those thoughts to the back of my mind and do the interview anyway. I did some intuitive guidance for myself and got that I should do the interview so I went ahead.

I had to do a spelling Test!

It was quite a pleasant interview despite the fact that I had never done one via Skype before, and the young girl was really nice. I got over my ego rearing its ugly head and thinking “She’s so much younger than me and SHE is interviewing ME” and decided to just be myself even though I probably sounded very much like a giggling school girl. To my dismay I had to do a spelling test and a grammar test and my heart was racing. I had always been really good at spelling and grammar but my mind was going blank at times. Still, she said I could write them down before I gave my answer if it helped and I called on my Angels to help me. I got through it and knew I had got some of them wrong but she seemed satisfied. She said she would let me know tomorrow if I had got through to the assessment. She did get in touch the next day and said I was through to the assessment at the university the very next week. I was quietly relieved but not overly ecstatic.

How would I cope?

The next few days were all a blur. I was constantly worrying about the assessment day and how I would cope working 9 to 5 part time for 3-4 days a week, looking after my mom when my brother needed to go out and running a very busy Facebook page, membership group and business. Something would have to give. I couldn’t manage them all. I would end up really stressed out like I did in my last job. I couldn’t go through all that again! I had just got straight after the last bout of stress and depression. My mind was in turmoil. I was losing sleep and constantly doing self reiki in order to get some sleep. I felt tired, run down and down right fed up. Why had it come to this? I was following my dream. I really had a genuine desire to help people. I had been intuitively guided to go down this path and lost my job in order to be able to pursue it so why, oh why was it all going t**s up!

Should I trust my own Intuitive Guidance?

I don’t know if was all the worry, all the angst or what it was but I suddenly started feeling really ill. I was constantly dizzy and almost felt like I had the flu but there was no cold, no cough, no runny nose. I had prayed so hard for a sign from them upstairs as to what to do but I was all over the place and did not trust my own intuitive guidance. Could this be a sign that I shouldn’t go any further. I really didn’t want this job and it was a shame to keep carrying on when someone else could have it who would really want it. Finally, I managed to balance myself and receive some calming, reiki energy from the Angels and it all became clear. It really was my choice! I had to make the decision. I had secretly given them upstairs an ultimatum but I didn’t have to go ahead if I didn’t want to. The Angels will have my back and will always support me in whatever I want to do. They always have and they always will. I felt a wave of calm and really felt their presence and began to trust. I sent an email back saying I wouldn’t be able to attend as I had vertigo and wasn’t feeling well. I immediately received a reply saying, “What a shame. I wish you well in the future”. I was a bit open mouthed but I knew that it was the right thing and I immediately felt relieved.

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I can’t say the last few weeks following that decision were easy but things started to turn around. I still had wobbles every now and again but I convinced myself that I would rather do what I love and help lots of people and be broke for the rest of my life than being in a job again where I feel like a robot day in day out. Don’t get me wrong I have had some great jobs in my time and I was really lucky as, from the age of about 13 to 48, I was always in work. I have had jobs I have absolutely loved and every time I have worked I have always put my all into my work and done the best I could. I always remembered  my late granddad saying “If a job’s worth doing it’s worth doing well” and I had always tried my damned hardest to stick to it! Every job I have had has given me new skills, enabled me to meet many people, some of which I am still good friends with today and I am truly grateful for all of them; even the bad ones. Every experience shapes us into the people we are today, good or bad and it’s life changing when we realise that! I wondered if all my negative thoughts had held me back and, again, sought intuitive guidance for myself. It appears it was all deep healing to bring everything from my past to the surface to heal and, also, so I know how it feels to be rock bottom and still keep going on blind faith so I can better help other people in business who feel just like I did. How awesome is that?!

Never give up on your Dreams

So, here I am, two years later still pursuing my dream. My business has gone from strength to strength and I am now helping other ladies in business to keep their faith and boosting their businesses with REIKI once a week!

So good to TRUST in the Divine and move forwards with the help of my Angels. I woke up feeling excited every morning now as I am helping ladies, who like me in the past, have niggles and doubts and struggle to keep going at times. I am often  reminded of a sign that the late, great Dr. Wayne Dyer had above his bed “Good things are going to happen” and, as the song goes, it really does like my fire when I see my lovely business boosters growing and shining brighter than ever before!

So my message to you is live life in the moment, enjoy every day and if you’re not doing what you LOVE, do something about it, whatever it is. I’m not saying give up your job but, if you’re not happy and doing something that you love, look for something better. You can ask your Angels for help all you want and they will throw opportunities your way, but it is you and only you that has to take action and make it happen. Live, love, learn and be grateful, always!

 

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